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let it flow into your veins fill the gap in what remains quench the ghosts of those receded once fulfilled and then depleted with the healing as it burns quiet deaf these lost concerns falsehood and the repercussion penance held without discussion lasting breath into a life outward bound without the knife patiently awaiting exit countless days for the decrepid southbound souls remain In Flux unsung words betwixt by crux passers by leave lament feelings pointless preservation dealings bid farewell now for the best I will keep this to my chest in the next life I'll embrace this deja vu of what was once his

have you ever had to mourn someone still amongst the living watched them drift away in spite of all that you were giving missed someone who once was there so strong within your presence learned to trust in words that faded 'wrestled with their essence taken by their reassurance believe that you belonged just to have them disappear and wonder what went wrong one who has so many caring cannot wear your shoes adorned will not fathom their importance in a life alone forlorned a light once shown into the dark now remains so shattered haunted by the fact that your light never even mattered

I miss the way things used to be before the great decline when you were you and I was me and everything was fine the blissfulness of ignorance all within face value though all of it was arrogance before it was untrue I hate it now with every chance and wish it wasn't so the melancholic resonance of words that will not go I had to stand by witnessing endure the fading gestures presence into reminiscing gone beneath this vesture so saddened by the loss of one two as it unfolded the three that came to mean the sun upon a world left scolded

can one drown in their own tears suffocate on their own fears pass away from yesterday's buried by the yesteryears when alcohol has lost it's fix and drugs no longer have their kicks everytbing has run it's course you idolize the crucifix sacrifice for greater good let lie things misunderstood less the burden for those loved sorrow does the world no good motions showing without feeling in a state of constant reeling far away the gaze glazed over eyes that are forever dealing close them now and rest my son go to where they cannot shun now a well deserved sleep slumber now for everyone

as vulnerable as one can be a child amongst the men i speak in words simplicity as I did way back then humbled to the bear essentials I lack the strength to fight I'm lost amongst the fear of life am wronged for what is right I shall not beg into the darkness just for a light to see as all those shadows dance upon the man I used to be while gritting teeth to brace the change and fists clenched to renew all that I have come to relish this birth that I imbue if i have grace to grow again to be someone of pride may I find peace this time around and in myself confide

I like to think i saw you there and maybe more than some found beauty in the chaos that you think you have become the highs and lows and in between i stood fast in the storm without a scratch the sun still shown on how the rays did warm though none of this was your intent and neither was it mine I found reprieve from my own storm and life within your shine you taught me how to dream again or maybe how to sleep the paramount of memories you always get to keep I fear that I have seen you though with eyes that you don't own an insight that cannot be held that you cannot condone behind the glass that keeps you safe back and forth you roa

the hardest pill to swallow is the one you've always known you never will be good enough in spite of all you've shown you wash it down with foolish hope and swallow it with pride internalized within your thoughts behind the actions hide regurgitate the excess you proceed with what is left a lesson learned not better for no strength under it's heft to sort it out and make a mends is all your future holds just rearrange the clay again and throw away the molds for your fate has been decided trued by your intentions the company of memories no one ever mentions

I hold tight to the candle till it burns to the bone pain is insignificant to what I won't condone a flame unto the darkness a shimmer in the night I strain to see before me while giving up the fight knowing is a curse to those chosen not to believe hope is stolen from a heart in which it won't conceive it's lies and misdirection used to fill in the gaps waiting for the end to come the grim reaper taps solemn stares a travesty for those who know better words I'll never speak again right down to the letter

while standing on the river bank I see the other side behind me miles of poverty that I could never hide across the water shining bright are two eyes swollen red tears that flow into the depths in wishing she were dead to my dismay she takes a leap and plunges to her doom without a doubt I do the same though I could share her tomb while swimming fast i wonder why someone who has it all could take her life for granted thus how could she feel so small I drag her to the shore alive though not the one I know and ask why would she leave this life why does she want to go she says that no one sees her here she feels like she's a number he

wonder 'round the evidence search for motive within follow now a present tense I care not for back then sure we know the circumstance why I am this beaten hold this moment's happenstance exorcise those demons flood the walls' integrity search for cracks still beating bloodied hands sincerity permeate my being unknown thoughts disparity blind my eyes from seeing shuffle now for clarity senses lost to fleeing if two cannot be losing which one stands the victor without the guilt of choosing the flash over the picture a perceived notion bruising wounds the old constrictor left cyclical abusing hail the great predictor